How could you be so souless?
A demon in Elizabeth Taylor
Working hard to provide for your…
That’s what we were.
No, there was no softness
Just hard edges, razor sharp points
Hugs as hard as concrete and kisses that made us bleed
Lovelorn children turn to starving adults
Never full, can’t get full, never enough
Sex, God, attention – Must. Have. Attention
A misplaced glance likened to a bomb blast
And like burnt paper we simply slide away
What did you do?
Let your men touch them, let your man touch him
Take possession of an innocent and render it unholy
Make it hungry, make it needy, if it’s hungry we won’t leave, can’t leave, cannot ever ever leave
And that’s it isn’t it?
Miles and years apart we may be
But my thoughts don’t belong to me
You posses it pound for pound and you’re in for a penny
Ride this horse until it drops
Get over it, they say, let it go
But how when you still whisper in my ear?
Since no boundaries were honored, stripped down until I was naked
Miles and years it doesn’t matter
Doesn’t matter, you’re right here!
Utterly filthy and unrepentant
Demon possessed son, I grew a conscience
Ive been fucked in more ways than one
But you knew that already
Knew before you named me Freddie
That I’d be fucked figuratively before actuality could begin
Meh, so what?
So what?! I loved them. they fed me
Fed me hungry love starved soulful body
And one even managed to marry me
Said he loved me – I I!!! Was the one
And in the quiet stillness
As he sleeps I whisper
Whisper to him the things that I remember
Things that had gone on before
And among the things I told him about the long long road I be traveled and all the things and people and places I’ve been
I told him
I told him
I told him what you did.